Chapter Three--
Dear Chandra,
I know that over the last six years we have not kept in contact and I'm sorry.
Sorry for just leaving you alone, but and I say this honestly, I love you.
I always have and always will untill the day I die. Please give me a chance
to start over. To show that I love you. I hope you realize that song that
I sent with this letter is a way of showing how much I need you. When recording
it I sang it with as much feeling as anyone can. Just give me a chance.
- Nick
A tear ran down my cheek when I read that letter. It was very sweet, the whole thing was sweet, but I knew then that I couldn't let Nick back into my life. I had to forget about him and move on because if I didn't, then I'd set myself up for more tears, more heartbreak every Time he left to go on tour. Nick Carter was no longer the boy next door, he was a backstreet boy and that always would come first.
Coming to realization with this was a hard desicion, but I had to forget him. I got a box and put all our photos and everything that reminded me of him in it. Finally laying the tape and letter on top of everything. I took it down to the basement then decided on taking one last visit to our special place, the rocks near the beach. There I'd say my final goodbye.